Walkin thoughts: Know thyself... says Socrates. Aristotle said knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom. My thoughts... all good things come from God, for real wisdom I need to seek His face, and only through knowing Him can I truly know myself. This world obscures all that our creator tries to reveal. We are blinded by the sheer number of possible choices we can make and our senses are dulled by convenience and ease. We forget that this world is essentially a wild space and we survive so well because God gave us incredible ingenuity. Too much when you think that we use that ingenuity to deny our creator and proclaim that we have no need of Him IF He even exists. Because why would a loving God allow so much heartache, so much pain, so much evil to prevail? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why is there pain? Why would He not heal an illness, or alleviate the suffering that we see sometimes? Why do His people especially... seem to suffer so? I know myself. I know my own rebellious heart, even after a lifetime relationship with my creator who is developing a new heart within me. It could have easily been me in that garden being tempted by the enemy with... did God really say this or do that? To this day if I see a wet paint sign... I still wanna touch it, just to see. I would’ve eaten the fruit. Eventually. We weren’t meant to live apart from creator. He grieves that loss so much. Yet He still created us out of love knowing it would cost Him a part of Himself in His Son in order to redeem what we would lose. Right now the world is groaning for that redemption to be complete. Sin is a cancer in each of us, and the wages of sin is death. But we my friends are being born again into a new life. It’s more than spiritual and being born is a traumatic event that ends in a burst of glorious light. Can’t be pleasant in the birth canal being squeezed and pushed from warmth and comfort. That’s what this life is... some to death, some to life with an enemy that hates us and wants us separated permanently from God. But God stays His hand for now, He knows when He acts it will shake the foundations of the world and result in the permanent separation of ones He loves so much. His bright and morning star, chained, destroyed... His creation, decimated... His people persecuted. So many lost in spite of His patience. It’s a war we are fighting, saving as many as we can, standing firm in the face of catastrophe, and hardship. Living well in a fallen world, carrying eden with us in the garden of our hearts as a shining hope. Loving well as He pours into us the wonder, the joy, and the beauty and sense of adventure we were meant to live. And we live and love in the face of so much pain but He is there... working all things together for our good. And when we get right? His delight in us is a radiant thing. It flows from me in a wave as I revel in it. This... is what I’m meant to feel always. My heart is heavy as I realize that sometimes the enemy is me. There are only two choices: life or death and for now the rain falls on the just and the unjust but there is coming a day when the rocks will sing Christ’s praise as He returns to redeem the land and His people. As I face that high court, I will throw myself at His feet and say I am my beloveds and my beloved is mine. Whatever comes after will only be good. Thank you better daily for being a safe place to share my heart. There are some thoughts I truly want to remember and putting them here takes less space than writing them down.

Posted by kat at 2022-09-03 16:59:38 UTC